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Eye for an eye

Do on to others what you would want done to you! If you hit me then I’ll hit you back! These are the things that I think of when I think of eye for an eye. Her thoughts of me said goodbye, as she allowed the touches of another man to achieve her high.

I’ve been unfaithful several times before, and the pain she felt could no longer be ignored. I picture her in the mirror, with her thoughts more clearer. As she gets dolled up flippin that beauty switch, tonight is her night to do her thing, because karma is a ****.

Floatin around the club with a tight black skirt on, drinkin and winkin, clutchin and touchin, getting her flirt on. Anxiety fills my chest and nothing could be worse, panic attack is setting in, I need to call a nurse…OH MY GOD! I found condoms in her purse, tears swell my eyes as my soul starts to burst.

Do two wrongs make a right? She’s getting her medicine from another man, is that right? She gotta do what she gotta do…right? Is she letting another man smash with his fatty fatty, is she lickin and kissin and callin him daddy?

Now I know how she felt when I left her home alone, got me wanting to check her email, and the records to her cell phone. Thoughts of her being with him got me scared and paranoid, the fear in my heart is strong like a steroid, because of my actions, our trust is destroyed, and now she has found someone else to fill that void.

Eye for and eye,making my soul sigh, bringing my nervous tension to an all time high. I can't get mad, how can i have the nerve, I didn’t give her what she deserved, gotta learn to drive straight and not swerve. She said she didn’t do it, I believe her, don’t want another man to relieve her.

Must put it out of my mind, this man must remain nameless, I hope she didn’t do it so he can remain faceless, don’t want to think about how he touched her in all of her places, this fear in my mind is torture and not baseless.

Rock bottom is making me learn from my mistakes now, all of the grief that I caused is self-inflicted, she hit back hard, and the pain is wicked. Eye for an eye, I must forgive and forget and not ask why? I love her, I love her, I love her, and I never wanna say goodbye.

Sweet Pain.

It stings with the intensity of love,
But swiftly comes down,
From the elusive heights of joy,
Dropping from happiness' golden pedastal,
Plummeting to the hard mean ground,
As I fall I look up,
The pedastal still standing tall,
But I,
I am seconds from disaster,
As deceptions daggers lay below,
You stab me in the back.

You Said I Said

You said,
You loved me
But you lied

I said,
I love you too
And I tried

You said,
You wanted me
But you didn't

Your cheating heart.

The sun ascends, waking me from my own heaven
I turned to see you lying peacefully, unknown to your dreams of her

Now the rose, once vibrant, lays lifeless
the petals brown, deteriorating before my eyes
The symbol of our love; dying

I still gaze upon you with hope
while you gawk at her
forbidding to own up to your deceit

But your eyes radiate when she appears
the way they once did with me
I used to smile back with a sparkle
the happiest woman on earth
now it’s her, flirting her way to my man’s heart

A Cheating Lie

I'm trying to erase you from my mind, it's really over this time... I thought you were just mine... You hurt me and thought it was fine... Never thought you would cross the line... I know I'll get over you, and God knows how much I try... Put me through hell but I'll never no why... You said that I was your light that shinned.. You didn't want to loose me because I was so hard to find... Was she really worth it? Over the memories, and the bond we share, you chose her, I never thought you would dare... Whenever you needed me I was always there... I treated you completely fair... Because of you I'm in this nightmare... I presented you as my king to the world, I chose to give you all my love.... You chose to give me a heartache and bad news... You made a big mistake and now you loose... Your body was my favorite place, my favorite picture was your face... All I needed was your embrace.... I hope you realize how intense your mistake is... You're not the man I knew, look at me now, this is what you put me through. What does she have to give? I will never forget this? I have to brave, I will live.... I am beautiful, truthful, and wonderful... I don't need you... Stop trying, I don't believe you, stop lying.... I'm so sick of crying... You made me feel like I was dying... Want me to forgive you? Never, because I thought we were forever... Being without you was my biggest fear, you're not worth a single tear... I want to break away to a far place... I want to escape.... I won't let you hold me back.... Don't try to get me off track... How could it be, your hurting me? A touch that was once mine, you gave that to her... You took that away from me.... I want to forget you so that I can be free.... I will find a way out of this misery....

Never Once.

Never once did I think I would fall for you but there I was emotionally attached with no clue all I could think about was, us...us me and you but you don't want me so what am I to do? all I remember you saying is "I'm sorry I played you" funny how that all seems to go But now that I know my heart sinks low, Lower then the oceans great divine, Now I must let my mind unwind erase the memories, erase the pain I don't think I'll ever be the same How could love become such a game? Was there a rep you had to maintain? That girl you're with do you even know her name? Did you chose her over me because I was plain? I still think you can change, and for that am I insane? No matter how hard I try you still remain. My love for you will die in vain.

I can see the pain in your eyes.

I can see the pain in your eyes, it's right there, reminding me of what I've done. I am the betrayer, I put this hurt on you, you never deserved to feel this way. I don't have any excuses, I can't say it was a mistake, because I knew exactly what I was doing. The regret I feel chokes me, I have no words I can say, nothing that can erase what I've done. I wish you'd hate me, I wish you'd turn away, I wish you'd say you never want to see me again. Because sitting here, watching you accept this, is killing me. I know you deserve better, I know that better should have been me, but it wasn't. I can say I'm sorry, but even though I mean it, they're just empty words. No one likes a cheater, no one should.

I Loved You.

You have no idea how I felt You were my entire life They say with time broken hearts heal Rather then wait I turned to my knife I gave you everything I could I gave up everything for you, You hurt me in return Like I knew you would do They tried to make me see What you were all about I turned away in disbelief, Had to find out for myself In the beginning everything was great You made me smile you made me laugh I fell for you, took the bait But what I saw of you was only the good half Months went by, I was in love Thought you were all I would ever want or need But clearly love was not enough to make you rise above The reputation they told me to heed Then things started going bad I found you and her It made me so mad Your not the person I thought u were I forgave you For the betrayal and silly lies Because you changed my view To you I had so many ties I begun to realize That nothing was changing You were like so many other guys Constantly cheating What did she have That I was lacking Was it looks Or was it what she was packing I tried to end it But you kept holding on I tried to run away But you would not let me stay gone You kept calling and calling Convinced me I was wrong Finally I was bawling I couldn't move on So Here was chance two My biggest mistake You tore my heart in two Then stomped on it with hate I was too helpless to leave Even though I wanted to I wanted to believe That you would change How stupid of me To stay and stand by Why didn't I see That it was all one big lie I'm gone for good now It hasn't been easy But I'm moving on slow God you were sleazy I found a good guy He sure helped me see That rather then cry I had to work on me You think you won But you're so wrong I'm moving on It's not gonna take too long I finally see I'm better without you My life is so breezy God, get a clue You have the whore But the good girl got away Have fun loser Cuz away I'm gonna stay.

Husband Of 4 Years Cheated On Me ,I Should've Known

  

I want to write, scream and shout
But I'm sitting her with this doubt
I hate you for what you've done
But I love you for what you've helped me become
A strong woman who will not put her foot down
My mind keeps replaying how you played me like a stupid clown
You say I messed up that I was wrong
I knew what was going on all along
I sat there night after night wondering where you were
I should've known you were with her
Holding her the way I should've been held
Now I just wish you'd both burn in hell
I should've seen the emptiness in your eyes
But like an idiot I kept believing your stupid lies
You've scared me for life
How could you do this to your wife
A woman who gave you everything
But you just went out and sold our wedding rings
I see how much to you this marriage was worth
That you just throw me out in the dirt
For the next man I won't be able to open my heart
It doesn't matter how long we've been apart
The way that I loved you I will never love again
I still ask myself why did this have to end

Dear Heart,

Dear heart please stop breaking
please forget the one who caused this aching
I know I am the one who placed him there
But he was not true and I cannot share
When I gave him my heart he promised the world
But that promise he shared with more than one girl
Dear heart do you think that you will ever heal
and piece back together what I allowed him to steal
How will I ever fall in love again
Dear heart will you ever let anyone else in

You Cheated...

Why can't you love me the way you should?
I know you could...
Instead my heartache is what your choosing...
It's me that you are loosing...
I hate what you've done to me,
I was all that you ever wanted me to be,
I'm not blind, I can see..
I see your game,
I'm not insane, you are hurting me...
After everything I have done for you,
everything I gave you, you turn around and cheat?
All the times and memories we have spent together you even said we'd be forever..
The bond we share,
I never thought you would dare,
dare to hurt me this way,
all the lies you say...
You made me sick,
she is what you want to pick...
You made me cry while you told a lie,
you made me want to die...
How could this be your not here with me?
You are not that man I thought you were,
now I know, now I'm sure..."Never hurt you",
is what you said,
now I know your not a man of your word...
Made me feel crazy when I asked "why your phone was off",
yet I knew you were hurting me,
I knew I was right, you were out of my sight,
you really ruined my life...
How could you ask me to forgive you?
How many times can I? You have lost my trust over what I call lust...
You chose to hurt me it was a must...
I am beautiful so I have to be brave,
brave enough to move on,
I will be strong, without you,
my life won't be wrong..
I will forget you in time,
and no, no it's not fine...
I'm glad that your not mine...
You use to be my greatest treasure but now your never...
I hope your happy for what you did to me,
right now your blind but soon you will see....